I’m so sick of waiting around for you
Are you here?
Do you even exist?
Times like these I wish I knew.
I miss you so much
I actually have no idea who I’m talking about. Maybe I don’t miss anyone. Maybe I’m just sick of feeling alone.
Is it really too much to ask
For me to find a boy who equally likes me as much as I like him
Who listens to good music or plays guitar or drums or anything
Who wouldn’t mind just hanging around doing nothing
Who would like to cuddle and watch netflix or not watch netflix
Who would stay up late talking to me
And just not be afraid of what anyone else thought or of me?
I’ve been waking up differently in heavy delusions
I try to focus on the music rather than a ringing alarm
But I’ve got new problems now
As I wait for normalcy to return to my bed.
I really wish there were more people like you out there. I might not be alone right now if there were.
It always starts outside
Then we manage to stumble back into a house
Sit around in a bedroom.
Before I knew it I had no idea where i was
And I was petrified.
Everything went black and when I returned
I was stuck.
The same thing just kept happening
Over and over and over again.
Everything was out of focus yet so much more than I had ever seen.
I struggled to remember what was going on
Where I had been
And what I needed to do to make this stop.
I didn’t even remember turning the tv on.
I’m still having recollections
And it’s been two days.
I’ve barely slept.
But this nightmare finally seems to be over.